Brushing crumbs from our hands we stepped down to the river.
He said, "You'd best know I am unreliable, that I am a poor friend."
"A poor friend is better than none," I replied.
There we stayed in the breathless night.
Love is a strange fact --
it hopes all things, believes all things, endures all things.
It makes no sense at all.
...violent and doomed as this world might be, a romance it certainly is.
I think often of Celia Davies.
She could squeeze a conversation to its rind,
leap it east to west, or change its axis wholly.
Her wits were as supple as her fingers were rigid.
I don't know her story,
for she was an adept evader of questions,
but her life would be a giddy crossword,
working down from some clues and across from others.
He was talking -- praying, it turned out,
though I couldn't tell at first
since he didn't speak in the fraught inflections common to prayer,
at least my own.
It was more as if he was relating to a good listener the details of his day.
I asked the question that occurred to me:
"Why does she have no money?"
Glendon lifted his head and looked at me in wonder.
"That don't matter. Why don't matter. Isn't that clear to you yet?"
But it wasn't clear. I was not always a man to grasp the obvious.
For a long time I could do nothing
but stand looking at the dust pluming in that merciless sun,
and mourn my young friend.
It's said grief is more easily borne in company --
well, I didn't want to bear it easily.
Say what you like about melodrama,
it beats confusion.
The truth is we ought [to] have a chance to say a little something when it's getting dark.
We ought to have a closing scene.
"You are also different," she said.
I didn't try to explain that.
You can't explain grace, anyway,
especially when it arrives almost despite yourself.
I didn't even ask for it,
yet somehow it breached and began to work.
I suppose grace was pouring over Glendon,
who had sought it so hard,
and some had spilled down on me.
Consider this on my reading list. The grief quote alone did it.
ReplyDeleteLove these books and these quotes. I'm currently rereading Peace Like a River and stop almost every page to reflect on some great sentences or thoughts. Will also need to reread this book soon. By the way, you should read the book by his brother, Lin Enger. It's a retelling of Hamlet set in upper MN called Undiscovered Country -- haunting and beautiful.
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Thank you so much for the recommendation! I am looking forward to reading it now! :)
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